Timely Message Delivered Twice – is God telling me something?

It has been a while since I was pregnant with any of my children, but if you have ever been fortunate to be in this situation, do you remember all the pregnant women you would see at the market or at the shopping malls or libraries? You would swear that there was a boom going on, just because you were pregnant.

Do you remember when you bought your first car? You would see so many just like yours on the roads no matter where you would go. It became so familiar to you, just when you thought you were choosing one that might be different than what most people were driving. Prior to buying your car, you never saw anything like it.

Sometimes, when I am really searching for something, somehow the answer starts showing up in bits and pieces. I found our patio set, our dining room table and chairs, and my piano, all because they were things I was hoping for and longing for and waited long enough for. All were purchased second-hand but of nice quality and value.

I am frugal that way and put a lot of trust in the God who made me know what is best for me, and know what the desires of my heart are. He always comes through if I can “wait for it”. The most affordable, yet prettiest piece for my exact purpose is always met! I sacrifice nothing but my time.

I learned a while back that striving and being anxious for “things” is not God’s way for us. He wants us to trust in him and obey his Word. God wants me to “cast all my cares on him because he cares for me.” (1 Peter 5:7) He tells me his “burden is light.” (Matthew 11:30) God does not want us to rack up credit card debt for “things” that really are just to make our life comfortable and more enjoyable, but not really what will keep us well fed, clothed, and sheltered.

It is amazing to me what things God works on in us and the order in which he does it. Bit by bit he is transforming us, changing us, molding us into vessels that he can use for different measures of his purposes. He has to remove the chaff, crush us, prune us so we will produce the fruit he needs for the best wine.

It gets more natural to feed on his Word when at one time I didn’t understand any of it. I would read with little understanding but I knew I needed it in order to grow. In order to become a better person. In order to know God’s ways. But lately, I have been asking God to help me understand why things are as they are in my family.

I have a prodigal, whom I have not seen or spoken to in five years. I have a grandson who lives out of state I am not allowed to see. It is not that I know of anything I have done wrong (other than not being a perfect human being in general) in either case, that has caused this abrupt change in relationships.

All of a sudden, as if a door was slammed in my face, I was cut off, shut out, silenced. I can’t explain it. After spending many years crying and trying to find a way back into each of their lives without result I have come to accept it. I put it in God’s “capable” hands.

I pray for them and me and all involved but come to no just conclusion, resolution, or change. I can accept that. But, it is not easy. I still have tears. Acceptance does not mean you have lost all love and care and feelings for someone you have been cut off from.

My hope is that my entire family will be together with the LORD in heaven one day. I don’t want anyone left behind or lost because I did not try to get the GOOD NEWS of the gospel to them. I have no control, no influence, no promise of ever being united with either of them again.

Both were my “firstborns” if that means anything. My first son and my first grandson in my family. It brings me to think of so many in the Bible who have stories about their firstborns being given up for something.

I keep searching and I know the answer will come just as did my piano, my patio set, and my dining room table and chairs. God will let me know as clearly as I know my husband loves me when he brings me my tea without ever asking him to.

Maybe God was calling me to do the same. I am clueless but just accept what is and continue to pray for blessings and protection against the enemy in their lives. Mostly to bring people that would share God’s love with them with the hope of them drawing near and making a decision to put their trust in him.

Am I being tested?

You never know what lesson God is trying to teach you until the testing is over. Pruning is not fun. Parts of you that you thought you needed are removed. But, new growth begins. You get stronger and are more useful to God. All of a sudden you can give an answer to someone who has been through just what you had and the answer comes easily.

You can tell that there is a power within that is moving you. (Not that I am any type of evangelist or speaker with influence on my own.) You speak with confidence and the right words seem to reach the other person, or you feel a sense of hope that you gave them some hope by the words God put in your mouth. I can’t explain it.

The more time you dedicate to God, the more he will change your life. I read sometimes by just opening my Bible to whatever the pages fall open to. The other morning it was 2 Chronicles. At first, I thought, oh this is boring…then I quickly changed my mind and told myself to read where my I directed me. I read:

2 Chronicles Chapter 34 ” Josiah was eight years old when he began to reign, and he reigned in Jerusalem one and thirty years. And he did that which was right in the sight of the LORD, and walked in the ways of David his father, and declined neither to the right hand, nor to the left.

I continued to read this section and just meditated on it awhile, pondering, thinking, knowing that “every word that goes out from God’s mouth will not return to him until it has accomplished what God wanted” (Isaiah 55). I am thinking, I wonder what God is trying to accomplish in this section of the Bible I read this morning. (I read until 34:13) What did any of this have to do in relation to my life and my prayers?

I went downstairs to start some housecleaning and my usual routine in the morning making my tea and such. I have a Bible in almost every room of the house but also some books by pastors and authors I like. Commentaries or supplements for study. This one sitting in my kitchen was one I barely started by Dr. David Jeremiah called: Jesus’ Final Warning – hearing Christ’s voice in the midst of chaos.

My bookmark had been moved for some reason (my fault for using the dust cover to mark my spot) so I thought I would just open it and try to find some section that sounded familiar from my last reading. I opened to page 28 and read:

“Think of it! By the time eight-year-old Josiah became king of Judah, the worship of Almighty God had become so corrupted that even in His very temple the people stored their idols of Baal and Asherah.”

The section continues to go on and has comments about this section in the Bible and about King Josiah. That is the point I am trying to make. Both my individual reading of scripture (opened randomly up to 2 Chronicles 34) when I started my day up in my room, and then me opening this book to this page was a clear sign that God wants to teach me something.

I come to mind Joseph and how he was taken from Jacob, being his favorite, Issac and how Abraham was being tested with his sacrifice being asked of him, I think of others, firstborns being given up as with Hannah, when she dedicated Samuel her firstborn to the priesthood under Eli because she was barren and prayed for a son.

God loves our firstborn but loves all of us. There is something very special though about giving up the first fruits that we have that are precious to him. I don’t know what God has in store for my son or grandson. I don’t know why they have been removed at this time from my life. I hang on to hope that it is for a greater purpose in his plan where they are needed.

I won’t strive, I won’t be anxious, I no longer cry about a change in circumstances for me because I must have faith that God knows what is best, God loves them and God’s ways are not our ways. I do pray daily for their health and safety but mostly that they come to know God’s love for them and the road to salvation will be taken.

I pray for Christian friends to surround them, and have a burden for their souls, and pray that “no weapon from the enemy used against them will prosper.” (Isaiah 54:17) I pray that they come to love the truth, their eyes are opened and their ears unplugged so they can hear God’s Word. I pray they have a hunger and an appetite for things that are of God and from God such as the people he sends and the messages he brings. I pray that walls of deception are broken down and lies and deceit cause them discomfort and confusion.

In Jesus’ name, all things are possible, if we believe and ask.

Published by cushn4

I like to write for the pure enjoyment of writing short excerpts about life in general. I would want my writing to bring inspiration or encouragement to the faint-hearted or those looking for some direction, purpose, or meaning. I am searching daily for what it is God wants me to do and who he wants me to become. It is a growing pain for me. We all have something new we can learn and share with others.

8 thoughts on “Timely Message Delivered Twice – is God telling me something?

  1. Thank you for sharing this. I’m going through a season of letting go, too. Not the same circumstances as you’re experiencing, of course. One thing my counselor told me was that as I let go, often that’s when God can do the work of restoration. Feels counterintuitive, doesn’t it? Anyway, I understand having to accept and let go. May God comfort your heart today and bless you for sharing this.

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    1. Thank you Sara! Blessings to you. If our arms are full and fists clenched tight holding on to our stuff how can God fill us up with his GOOD THINGS he has in store for us? Less of me and MORE of HIM. That is all I need.

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  2. There’s a song, maybe the title is, “He’s In the Waiting”–not sure of the artist, but I can look it up if you’d like. It’s a good, comforting song. Blessings to you.

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      1. Oh how nice that you play the piano–I am not so gifted!. As the psalmist David knew, music is so beneficial to our spirits. I’m grateful everyday to have Godly music playing on a TV channel. Blessings to you! ❤

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